Tea House Cafe

Had a great day out this morning..the sun was up and blinding which is absolutely fantastic..even the chilly wind at 3 degrees Celsius felt like summer..haha..

Was having lunch at my favourite miso soup noodles cafe and watching Bold Street come to life..there was a range rover looking vehicle side parking by my window and I thought to myself, damn I miss driving..

It's that feeling u get when u vainly think the whole world is watching u struggling to side park, just waiting for u to make a stupid "lady driver" mistake so they can laugh at how horrid ure side parking skills are..

The weird things u miss in life :p

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architecture ; "it is the total environment made visible"
- Suzanne Langer

Innocence..Ignorance..Incompetence..

salty seas..windy whirls..

it's hard to be..when thoughts unfurl..

needs and wants..hates, despise..

when which is what, where do we start..

utter conviction and perpetual reasons..

are they just lies of the changing seasons?

why disappointment, why despair?

curiously, why is there even care?

hopes and dreams, impulsive whims..

delusions and fancies, of that intangibly there

maybe here? maybe not anywhere..

yet so upset..we do still dare..

to thirst, to crave, unrequited..

to hurt, to bleed, scarred; defeated..

a strangely tasteful disposition..

what will be should be

and what unyielding vagary should be made be

by you.........by me

the satisfying need of an emotional body

the continuous beat of a rhythmic heart

.....ignorance.....

a fresh start.

panic attacks are not for me

i need to inhale..i need to calm down..i need to not have nervous breakdowns..

i need to manage my emotions..i need to learn how to work well with others..i need to have a healthy hobby..

i need to finish my work early and not just in time..

i need to be an adult.

i need to pray.

i must not loose my mind