iPad

E : Do you play "noodle-jump"?? (this is what i heard)

A : no, what's that?

E : it's when you tilt your iPhone or iPad to jump on to the levels..

A : ...i don't understand...

E : because the level is bouncy..

A : ...

E : can i show you??

A : ok...but what are "you"?..

E : "you" are...a thing

A : (hahahahaha!)

i now know it's a game app called Doodle Jump and "you" are a doodle that looks like a potato squid...

i want iPad..

Wishlist

i wish i could read minds..to a certain extent..like i can switch it on and off, when i really need some peace of mind..i wish i could let other people read my mind too..when i don't know how to relay something in words..or especially when there's no way something can be described in words..

i wish i could sing to some people..when i want to sing to these people..without feeling nauseously nervous and without over-thinking the "why-s"..

i wish i could get over myself..and get out of my head..and just have more "balls" to do something about stuff..stuff that mean a lot to me..stuff that i'm clearly finding hard to leave be..

i wish i could repeat that window of time..to appreciate it even more..to probably replay it over, and over, and over again..because it made me sincerely happy, whole, giddy and fulfilled..

safe..strong..able...

i wish......a million wishes right now.........

i saw something in the stars that night..strong enough to make me cry..i felt something that gave me light..something i'm sure changed me..something worth fighting for..

so why am i not fighting?..what's wrong with me....

Escapes from Some Kinda Crazy

1. Zee + Tea + Locanda Locatelli :)

the absolute bomb..zee's visit was timely and Locatelli was an EXPERIENCE..haha!

2. London, Meet & Greet at Bayswater

made some new friends there..was an interesting outing..will definitely appreciate a "re-group" of some sort..t'was fun :)

3. School's Easter Ball

it is incredibly fun to get together every now and then with everyone dressed up, pretty, and just excitably dance-y..i just love 'em..the music and the place that night was pretty good too..

March has been very kind to me :)

~ Now, off to work you! ~

Done (Temporarily)

4 day breaks are the effing bomb..

I'm gonna mmmmaximizzzzzzeeeee

- i need a doctor, doctor..to be bring me back to life~*

I'm Working Hard, Seriously! :(

freaking out..

all is good but..matilahhhhh..

it's so susah as it is..just to survive..minimum upper second class?..60% for all modulesss???

piglettssssssss..die die dieeeeee..luckily contract only begins now..but still, i'll probably get an effing warning letter already..dieeeeeeeeeee..

shit..

but i should be going for high grades..if i plan to ever get to do a specific masters or phd..

i'm an idiot!

argghhhhhh..cry.........

The Final Lap

7 days..

to solitary confinement again..

i'm not so sure that's a good thing anymore..

it gets lonely doesn't it?..

i should be more worried about now..

the next 7 days are crucial!

- success will only come to those who strive for it -

Tea House Cafe

Had a great day out this morning..the sun was up and blinding which is absolutely fantastic..even the chilly wind at 3 degrees Celsius felt like summer..haha..

Was having lunch at my favourite miso soup noodles cafe and watching Bold Street come to life..there was a range rover looking vehicle side parking by my window and I thought to myself, damn I miss driving..

It's that feeling u get when u vainly think the whole world is watching u struggling to side park, just waiting for u to make a stupid "lady driver" mistake so they can laugh at how horrid ure side parking skills are..

The weird things u miss in life :p

~**~
architecture ; "it is the total environment made visible"
- Suzanne Langer

Innocence..Ignorance..Incompetence..

salty seas..windy whirls..

it's hard to be..when thoughts unfurl..

needs and wants..hates, despise..

when which is what, where do we start..

utter conviction and perpetual reasons..

are they just lies of the changing seasons?

why disappointment, why despair?

curiously, why is there even care?

hopes and dreams, impulsive whims..

delusions and fancies, of that intangibly there

maybe here? maybe not anywhere..

yet so upset..we do still dare..

to thirst, to crave, unrequited..

to hurt, to bleed, scarred; defeated..

a strangely tasteful disposition..

what will be should be

and what unyielding vagary should be made be

by you.........by me

the satisfying need of an emotional body

the continuous beat of a rhythmic heart

.....ignorance.....

a fresh start.

panic attacks are not for me

i need to inhale..i need to calm down..i need to not have nervous breakdowns..

i need to manage my emotions..i need to learn how to work well with others..i need to have a healthy hobby..

i need to finish my work early and not just in time..

i need to be an adult.

i need to pray.

i must not loose my mind