branding my mind - brand in my mine

thanks to miss Syazato! i am so extremely into online shopping right now..hehehehehehe...

it's so convenient, sites can be so detailed about what they're selling that u know almost exactly what u're getting and this makes a trip to the mall so menyusahkan..haha..u may or may not get what u're looking for..but online, u can look until u get what u want n it will eventually be sent to ur door step..hehe..haih...

going through all this information reinforces my want to start my own thing..i'm just really not sure about the risk behind investing my time n money in starting a business..i've been thinking about this for so long it's crazy..but i know that deep down inside, this little side project will make me very happy :)..hehe..

well now i'm in the 'planning-n-writing-a-business-plan' process..will hopefully be able to really kick things off when i graduate next year n take 6-12months off..hahaha..seriously man..i need investors (like my brother n parents, hehehe) that can provide me with sufficient "modal" on top of what ever i'm putting a side myself..in order to do that, i need to produce a killer business plan (something my brother mewajibkan me do) if i even dream of getting anywhere near doing this..i don't even know how to begin to do it..but that shouldn't stop me from trying right..hehehe..

one really huge problem though..i have to be realistic in life right, i definitely don't have the balls (ofcourse i don't, i'm a woman..hahahaha) to drop everything i'm doing n what ever courier plan i have for my future just to feed my need for self-satisfaction..i would love if i could juggle my current pre-planned architecture courier with my obsession in creating my own brand..thing is, i really don't know if that's a good idea..entahlah..am i capable enough to not get distracted by one to screw up the other?..it's scary..

well right now, i really do wanna try anyway..?? gosh..i hope n pray that this is the right decision..hehe..go go aliebarley!

      blue lillies, by tomtack

Tropic Thunder

(Official Trailer)

i watched this movie the night i completed my Building Construction examinations 2 days ago..i completely loved it :) it was soo super funny, and Tom Cruise's persona in this movie just blew me away..he is really that damn good an actor..at one point i really considered him to be so full of himself and just an old washed out actor living in the shadow of his younger days, but i honestly take it all back..it was a dumb ass role, but to think that he could pull it off that well was amazing..

i also thought that jack black deserved a better role in the movie though..his was just too stupid..jack has more talent than that..it was somehow one of those roles that any idiot could have easily pulled off..they made use of jack's physical character as a joke too much that i really disagree with the idea..but oh well, slapstick comedy right?..

the on-screen tension between robert downey junior and ben stiller was also really good..i somehow imagined it to be that way a little in real life too, on set..hehe..i dont know why..they were both really good at portraying their roles..and last but not least, the addition of "alpa chino" and the nerdish character that i just can't seem to remember his name, was just icing on the cake lah..

a good stupid joke movie lah this one :)

ps : i really recommend checking out the closing montage for the movie..i like it so much i am so downloading it when i get the chance..it was really well done and plus, with tom cruise dancing like an idiot, i think it's just really entertaining..

Suzuki SX4 Crossover

"Some day, you will be mine sweetheart :)"

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My Blog Browsing Adventures

wah!!!

i just added some friends blogs to my link list and i really really like their background and layout styles and all!..i want to customize too!!..but sadly no time yet :( geesh..

nvm! soon enough i will! hopefully if i can figure out how lah..haha!

sadness is just a state of mind

Selamat Hari Raya!!!

it's Hari Raya again!!!! and i'm so happy :) hehehehe...

i thought this year's raya experience was a good one...it's been a while since everyone from my extended family balik kampung together-gether...it's been a while more since i caught up with my cousins and their wal hal hidup, hehe...and i'm really glad to know their doing great :)

realising that all my cousins and nieces and nephews are all grown up now is freaking me out just a little bit, knowing that pretty soon i would have to be putting a side money for them as duit raya...haha...watching my dad and brother sit on the dining table the last night of puasa like ceti haram-s counting money and dividing them into little green packets...so systematic...

my closest cousin who's a year older than me now has 2 beautiful little kiddos that's so so adorable i feel like squeezing the life out of them...the eldest boy, Nashriq, came and hugged my head out of the blue one night and just made me feel so excited i wanted to pinch him...honestly, i find it a miracle that i can feel this way with kids because i used to be so freaked with these little creatures i wouldn't dare touch one let alone play with them...they seem so fragile, it's like if my clumsy ganas hands is anywhere near them they might just shatter into a million pieces.

one of my nephew's pulak has the most fantastic smile that just brightens up your day without fail...this little guy is such a sensitive creature, he cried his eyes out on hari raya day because their cat, Herbie, went missing that morning and he was nowhere to be found...my nephew wouldn't eat or drink and just locked himself in his room until we convinced him to go look for Herbie ramai-ramai...sadly we didn't find him then...but on the 2nd day of raya, Herbie came meow-ing back on his own dirty and hungry from his new found Melaka adventure...hehe...he had a shower, ate his food and stayed indoors for the remaining days.

freaking all my cousins and nephews and nieces have a handphone each ok...what has technology brought us to? hahahaha...it's crazy...i was too lazy to bring my camera balik kampung this year, and i so regret it!...i just really loved this raya a lot, it was so much fun...

owh, we also had a collective birthday party...hehe...everyone who's birthday is in this month was celebrated on the 2nd night of raya...and after the candle blowing festivities, there was a fireworks exhibition! cheh...haha...it was really nice though, we all set on a mat in the garden and watched the fireworks break into pretty little flickering lights above our heads...it made me appreciate still having a kampung house to go back to during raya and having my family to share the experience with...

i am utterly thankful, alhamdulillah...:)

Tick Tock, Will Time Say Stop?

possibly torn
incomplete and unborn
the feelings inside
which my heart cannot hide

for love or for life
for right or for height
for which passion ignites
for which is brighter in light

dazed and amazed
unbelievably hazed
what i feel inside?
do they feel a flight?


the truth to be told
in future it holds
guilty yet happy?
an epic story...

clear but a liar?
regrettably so familiar
yet cautiously grazing the unfamiliar

this engulfing feeling...
my desire.

cause you gotta have faith :)

sometimes, we really dont realize that we have a lot kept locked up within us until, well for girls, we get our period and our emotions go out of control...

sitting there crying, uncontrollably really lets someone swim deep into ones thoughts and realize things a person never did before..feelings buried so long ago, secrets forgotten, almost entirely since whenever they happened..

there's a saying that the happiest and loudest people in the world have the most to hide..but sometimes people do forget that quite ones do to..the only difference is some people are able enough to carry their burdens and continue walking, while some either find themselves too weak or too afraid and confused to do so..

this is why consideration towards others are so important..since life is filled with so many connections it is easy to forget to regard each person as an individual, and never assume or commit a perception to anyone so easily..

if you feel that your life is filled with torment and frustration, never forget that the person beside you laughing or trying to comfort you may have much much more hidden inside..

being sensitive and positive towards others is always a good trait to practice..we all have our own skeletons in our closet..and everyone should have or should really invest in a person to occasionally rearrange these skeletons with so that life would be easier to handle..

patience and optimism will always, always pay off in the future, no matter how long it takes, if we believe in it and look for it, we will find it eventually..have faith..thats the only thing left these days...

"I Am Legend" - review

When the trailer (version1, version2) for the movie came out, i remember being very excited. I waited patiently for it's release, which luckily wasn't so difficult since there were many pretty good and highly anticipated movies that released towards the end of 2007. After watching the trailer right, i expected it to be a little like "Resident Evil", a popcorn action-horror-suspense flick with a lot of good looking action scenes, entertaining not so overdone stunts and a simple one dimensional storyline with minimal dramatic character issues, something like that, but ofcourse Will Smith is too good and too big an actor to be starring in a popcorn flick so it increased my expectations a little bit.

Sadly though, i wasn't able to watch it on it's opening day because of my university opening semester week so i was able to get some feedback from the newspaper reviewers and some friends on the movie before i actually watched it. Now that i've watched it, personally, i give it a 2 thumbs up. A definite must watch for those who like a moderate paced suspense-action movie. i believe it's one of those movies that's a keeper, where you should buy the DVD when it comes out because you would want to watch it again sometime in the future. i think what's special about the movie is how they emphasized on the fear of living in forced solitude, as my friend calls it, and also the fear of loosing the reason to live and to survive while being all alone, like literally. Some parts of the movie will just really put you at the edge of your seat. i believe they did really well in playing with the audiences emotions, in anticipating something really bad to happen and just keep on building that feeling up to the climax, in my view, where his dog runs into the dark area. That was just freaky to me. You could somehow feel the fear that was going through Robert Neville's mind and you'd just join him panting heavily because of it. It's been a while since i was so freaked watching a movie. Then there were the sad parts where you just emphatize him, you'd just want to cry.

On the other hand, i can understand why some critics condemned the movie for being in some words "boring", "slow", and too silent or something like that. It is, i think, because it was intentionally done that way to achieve a very heavy, serious feel to the movie to again emphasize on that forced solitude thing i mentioned earlier. Like the silence of being the only one alive. Eerie. But that's the thing, if you come in looking for a fast paced action flick with lots of blood and disgusting killing stunts like in "30 Days of Night", you might just be disappointed. And on some reviewers saying that it's somehow a lot like "28 Days Later", i personally think that this movie is a lot more entertaining and well arranged. Well, i wasn't disappointed. i really appreciate how the movie made me think about a lot of issues after watching it and it's always nice to see Will Smith at his best. i believe i would be going to a bookstore soon to get the novel, since some say the ending in there was better. Well, can't wait. Will definitely be amongst the influential movies of 2008.

The Emotional 1st Post

how should a relationship be for it to be "right"?

is there a format in relationships which we should refer to and follow?

i think too many people have given me their answers for these questions yet it's always more complicated to do what your logic believes is right when it involves another persons feelings and "principles" if i may call it..

i am an idealist..i believe in happily ever afters and true loves kiss and all that fairy tale mambo-jumbo yet i am somehow just super practical and an anger-filled "tormented" loner as well..how is that even possible? i wonder..

all of real life's experiences and "education" have thought me that it's a lot more difficult to survive in this world as an idealist rather than a selfish non-believer and especially compared to a heartless opportunist..i mean, simple "faith-filled" logic always reminds us that to live a good life where you are good to people and you practice good morals will lead to a happy life filled with justice and fairness and happiness and all that jazz..but in todays world it's clear that only the most power hungry will succeed, only the most cunning opportunist will get ahead and ofcourse, only the most capable "persuasion techniques" and well told lies will get the attention..yet i still believe that every person will have their day, and every wrong doing will have its consequences..

but that's the problem with being an idealist..since the world isn't ideal, obviously, we suffer from being tormented by what we believe in and having to just accept that we have to go against our "principles" in order to survive and succeed..yet only to a certain extent because there will be things we will never be able to do, just because..and this will be a disadvantage..

idealists tend to sacrifice their own happiness for the sake of making other people happy and because we always feel that it's so bad to make other people feel bad, we never make ourselves happy..

so..what makes me happy?..

what do i think i want right now that could possibly make me happy?..

should i tell him that the way he thinks makes me unhappy?
should i tell him that i hate his perspective on life, people and things?
should i tell him that his repetitive ignorance on certain things hurt me?
should i tell him that i'm angry at him for not respecting my views and discreetly wanting me to change?
should i tell him that i hate it when he gives me that all disappointed look when i don't see things the way he does or when i refuse to be the person he wants me to be?
should i tell him that i love him but in order to be happy to continue being with him i'd like him to change?..
isn't that so cruel?..

or would i rather continue to torture myself and him and pretend that everything's ok and just wait for a bursting climax to let it all spill out so that he'll hate me forever and easily get over me?..

i can't see him all broken again..i just can't do that to him..there are times when i'm so happy we're together but there were times where i just wished he would be some other way..

oh, wow..
will i ever fall in love again? or will i always find a reason to not want to stay?..

do i love him?..yes, i do..but i guess sometimes, i just can't stand it.