October Blues

so..

it's been a dreadful month..haha..had my first taste of final crit and first project here..omg..who ever said that it's easier to study overseas than at home is dead wrongggggg!!!! i feel as if i've been lied to! :(( it's so tough i want to dieeeeeee..ughhhhhhhh..i feel like such a loser, and like such a boring designer and so uncool compared to everyone else..it's so easy to fall into depression like this..arghhhhhhh..oh man..

on a lighter note, i absolutely LOVE our school workshop..i want to kiss the laser cutter machine!..i want one for myself someday, i'm serious..if i could, i would so spend my holidays there just making stuff for fun..it's such a magical place :) i love it!

ok, story time..i had, i would award it, my worst ever day in my life last Sunday, the 7th of November 2010..

- i slept for only 2 hours the night before

- travelled to Nottingham at 5 in the morning

- arrived in the freezing cold clearly a lost cause and unprepared for the weather

- spent 12hours there doing God knows what to kill time

- arrived back in Liverpool tired and sick at 10pm

- forced myself to attend a party because the host is heaven-sent at 12am

- got my wallet taken form my bag

- had to call home n the bank at 4 in the morning to cancel all cards

- woke up at 11 bitter and hungry

- exploded 4 eggs in my face while preparing breakfast, seriously

- got 1st degree burns for my ignorance

- chelsea lost 2-0

it was so much to take in, in a day..i felt so completely depressed after..

i am now close to being broke..yet i hope to go to London on Wednesday..how will i manage that? let's soon find out..hehe..*sigh sigh sighhhhhhhh*

and btw, i think i've found something..something i feel very strongly for..but i'm still hesitating and i don't know why..but i'm sure i want it, i'm quite serious and ready..but i'm not creating any opportunities, horribly enough, i think i'm messing things up..ugh, whatever..just an addition to my depressive situation i guess..*sigh again*

i should sleep now, i'm babbling..will put up a proper post soon :p

goodnight world..please don't be mean to me anymore, ok?..

thanks in advance.

-end-


edit (23rd December 2010) : Omg, i'm an idiot..i just noticed my post title says "October Blues" instead of "November"..wow, fantastic..lol XD