Nightmare at 2.30am

Ok, I'm agitated and I can't sleep..so I've decided to write this post..

My gut has been quite accurate so far, if I really listened..I felt strongly on the win against Argentina, it was worrying but the winning feeling was there..I was however in denial with Spain and underestimated their slightly inconsistent form..clearly I was wrong and they played really well..

Confession : the day before the world cup began my mom had asked me who I thought would be champions this time around, and my answer was Spain..I didn't share this with anyone else..

I know, I'm such a traitor..

I've been a German fan since we (my wc girlfriends for life!!) started to watch this crazy time stopping worldwide event..it is officially our 3rd wc together n as German fans through n through..I don't even remember how we got about to being German fans but I think it had something to do with Michael Ballack, n the superb skills of Kahn, Lehman, Klose, Lahm, Mertesacker and the rest of the superstar senior team, just to name some favourites..

4 years ago, we being excitable young teens, stitched our own German gear, painted our nails black, red n yellow, even bought matching shoe laces to show our support..unfortunately, in the semis, Germany lost to Italy on penalties..we watched that game on foot for the full duration of 120minutes + + as we couldn't get a table..it was heartbreaking..

Today, history has repeated itself..only involving Spain this time, without penalties or even extra time..and all 3 of us girls were watching in separate venues..without too much German "merchandise" :p (there's a word for it, but I can't seem to dig it out of my brain)

Heartbreaking, again..

I will however admit that Spain was the better team today, with little drama involved in play for both sides..it was the worste Germany has performed in this wc, which did not suck considering they've been tremendous through out, and the best game from Spain so far..their passing was impeccable, aggressive atacking, crazy close-control and great team work..n most importantly, they delivered when it mattered the most..

I had said that if Germany was able to block-out Villa from scoring and prevent an early Spain goal then they would win..I was wrong..they did both n they still lost..

It was a good German team this year..mad young skills..just unfortunately not good enough..n I think Muller being out of the game had caused a big hole in their attacking formation..Klose, Muller, Ozil n Podolski have been playing really well together..I'm in love with Mesut Ozil btw..but am a little disappointed in his last 2 games though..I'm sure he can do better..*sigh..

All in all, my gut is sticking with Spain for champions..let's see if my gut is as accurate as Paul the octopus :p I'm so angry at this animal right now, although I know it's not its fault..sorry Paul, you're my punching bag for the rest of the world cup.

For what it's worth, Los Deutchsland!! Ich denke un dich.

Just Another Day In "Paradise"

Kena marah today by my brother for coming home late 2 days in a row because of work..sh** man..this sucks..

I can't just leave when I know things are not done..I just can't..nanti cannot sleep thinking about it anyway..same difference..

But I know he's right though, I'm not handling my hand over very well..I need to be more aggressive..I need to completely let go and let them feel the load..then maybe they'll buck up and step up..

I should start thinking about myself and my personal priorities already..

I'm scared man..I feel like I have zero knowledge in my head for September..I'm not ready if I stay like this..I NEED to set my stuff straight man..

Haish..wish me luck :p

July is suppose to be fun dammit!

Today was an odd day..

It was freezing although the sun was up strikingly bright..

I had enough sleep but felt like I stayed up for 2.30 football that morning..

Ppl just decided to go on emergency leave and left me to die alone..

My boss seemed to have had forgotten some things that started to confuse me n gave me a headache..

I wanted to listen to mellow music again..

Something exploded, literally, as I was crossing towards that direction..luckily I didn't cross the street yet..

Pappa rich was jam packed at 10pm on a Monday night..

I didn't finish work..obviously..I was disappointingly unable to juggle the work load of 3..

I drove back half asleep at 12.30am..

But now I can't sleep.......

Seriously........

:(