You're So Rude

There was this lady at pull and bear..it was her turn to pay at the cashier..she was such a snob, it was annoying..me and this guy behind me had to wait close to half an hour in line behind her..at first I was pissed at the shop attendants for only providing one working cashier..but it was already 9.30 ish on a half hearted Friday night crowd, they had probably just closed the other counter..so, watever lah..but this lady is so thick that she told the cashier to hurry up because "her baby needs to sleep"..I dunno why, I was just so irritated at that statement..the problem is, she was the reason behind the delay..something about exchanging some stuff she had bought with a bunch of other stuff, like 10+ different items, which she had to top up additional ringgits for, which may I add she paid via credit card..lagi lambat..she had to calculate stuff on her phones calculator with her husband, then borrowed the cashiers calculator that got the cashier confused and had to clarify with a superior..she then put on a snubby face and nagged the cashier, then had the cheek to ask her for a new pair of the shoes that she was buying as this cashier is scanning the items into the register..I'm like, what kind of person is this?? N there's 2 more people queing behind u, what the hell is wrong with you?? you should go to the cashier when ure done picking out ur shit and having the other attendants who were at ur disposal on the sales floor to help u get new stuff from the store..how inconsiderate and selfish..I was sooo irritated..what held my patience and made me stay was the look on the cashiers face..I sincerely pitied her..she looked so helpless and worn out I just couldn't walk off..n the bag I wanted, I really liked as well lah..but really kesian this cashier lady..some people really don't know how it feels to be serving people 12 hours a day and have them treat you like kuli batak..it's really not nice..just because your buying and not selling, doesn't make you any better then the person in front of you..these sort of people just add to the supply of anger and negative energy in the world..ishk!..

Crane & Carpets

Oh my God..horrible dream..this vivid one, I hope to never even come close to reality..so freaky...

Indigo Clay

If vivid dreams were made to relay futures..then I want this dream to come true..

If intoxication leads to illumination..then illuminate me, please..

If art is music..and music is love..then I would like to defy gravity..

If the heart could speak, then I'd be embarassed to admit my desires and my obsessive nature to yearn..

Hallucinating..visualizing..wanting..centering chakra..materialization commencing??...

The "M" Word

Happy Mothers Day to all beautiful, wonderful, fantastic & superific moms everywhere!!! (^o^)!! Wooot wooot!!! May all great moms be blessed w good health, happiness and love..amin..

Baa Baa Black Sheep with Jack, Jill and the Hill

ugh..i lost the name card..yes i did..what a wonderful morning it's turning out to be..

i just got another disappointing reply from a university that i really reallllyyyyy REALLY want to go to..oh my God..it's me, isn't it? ..i don't pray enough..i've been having too much fun..i want it too much, or maybe not enough??..no, no, i wan't it too much..like Rachel said in glee "i want everything too much"..

i'm suppose to be devastated, which i am, but i'm too tired to feel..i'm only still awake because i just finished some office work due today..

i don't know what to feel..despite the countless rejections, life seems to be going in all the right directions..work is great..i love what i'm doing, and what i do is appreciated..that's all that i could hope for..i love my friends..i feel like giving them an XOXOXO just for fun every now and then..my adorable cat is occasionally obedient and oh-so-manja with me..my family is all healthy and well, alhamdulillah..everything is great actually..but i'm just not getting accepted to where i wanna go lah..

oh God..it can only be a sign right?..i dunno lah.....

Now, out of the 8 unis i applied to, the only hope left alive is from UCL (hahahahaha! i've so totally lost hope on this), Liverpool and the correct Sheffield course..sigh.....

Should i just take the Masters without the Part 2?..who knows where that would leave me??..honest question here, i'm really considering that unknown path..uuuuuggghhhhhh..

U know what, i tak larat nak apply for the Aussie ones dah..i don't wanna get rejected anymore!!! (v:__:v) tak sanggup......

To top it all off, i'm emotionally messed up again..it's not my hormones, it's really just me..i'm lost and depressive-ly verging on obsessive again..i'm probably hallucinating, seeing too much into absolutely nothing, and wanting AGAIN..i hate wanting!!..i'm such a loseerrrr..arggghhhhh!!....

i need a holiday..the beaches of Bali are calling to me..i need to centre my chakra..to manage my chi..to visualize the intangible strings of the universe to be as one with what is called me....

i need my pre-planned future back..i feel so unsettled not knowing..

Testing 1 2 3

Check check, testing 1 2 3..

Ngahahahaha!..

I think I'm infatuated :)