Bugger...

there's so much more left to do..

i have no more money...

i don't know if i can meet my deadline anymore...

i'm under a lot of stress and it doesn't help that there's added tension all of a sudden...

i'm tired and officially depressed...

but i still want this so bad!!!

challenges makes success a lot sweeter?..

i sure hope success is my destiny with this...sigh...

hoping and praying~*

Hopes and Wants

i'm scared of 3.45pm today...

i wish i could take the whole month off...

i just wanna be left alone sometimes...

i wish i didn't have to wake up to someone yelling at me, twice, this morning...

i wish all this preparation didn't cost so much...

i wish that i will be able to meet my deadline...

why in bloody hell am i so emotional sometimes?...

i wish taylor lautner is 25 and not 17...

i wish taylor lautner was malaysian...

i really wanna go holiday with the girls...

i really hope i get to continue overseas...

i hope that 3.45pm today goes well...

Love is Blind?

the opposite of love is...

hate?

selfishness?

jealousy?

animosity?

resentment?

annoyance?

utter dislike?

absolute loathing??

nope.

as the saying goes,

the opposite of love is none other then INDIFFERENCE

there's a very thin line between "compromise" and "indifference"..once the line is crossed, there's really no turning back..which serves to be the biggest disappointment in life..it is equivalent to the loss of hope..

hopelessness leads to despair..

despair leads to resentment, anger, and all of the above..thus, the above are all just by-products of indifference.. your mind tells your heart that it's ok to feel which ever way for something you don't want to care about anymore..

or so it seems......

- the fragile emotions of a human soul -

A Withered Rose

The most beautiful things in life

are those we usually take for granted,

and only appreciate when it's already too late.

Munif was right : I Am the Super Nerd

today something happened..

i finished my assigned job early and didn't really have anymore "meet-the-deadline" rush-rush thing to do so i went back to updating the supplier library..i already finished keying in the roof inventory into the computer so i decided to do the doors next..

so i sorted out the different categories, types and all that and began reading the catalogues and jotting down the needed information to be uploaded into the computer lah..

long story short, i got to the "Automatic Doors" category..this was like 2 and a half hours into just reading and writing..there was a brand of doors imported from Japan called NABCO..as i was reading it, i found myself giggling like a little kid amazed at the different types of colour coated jelly beans on display..

(if you hate reading about ridiculous architecture-ish stuff that's elaborately boring, please skip/fast forward through this paragraph)

there were like almost 10 different types of different automatic doors! each of the 10 having its own break down of 2-3 different variations! i was like so totally amazed!! the coolest were their collection of automatic revolving doors with the "circle star X" as the prized jewel! wow, i have never seen this door in my life and it's so COOL!! it's like a combination between a revolving door and sliding doors, like what the hell right?! i can't even imagine how it would work if i were walking through it..awesomeness....!!!

so yeah, as all this excitement raced through my head i didn't notice the ridiculous face i was making while giggling into a freakin door catalogue like it was a picture book..i had my mp3 on so i was kind of in my own little world until i thought i saw something moving from the corner of my eye..like that, an imaginary hand smacked my sub-concious telling me to snap out of it..as i was coming back to reality, i think i somewhat remember making weird grunting noises in between giggling earlier..oh my God..

seriously, a big oh my God..i'm in my office kot sitting at the meeting table..now, only God knows what my office mates might have saw and what they thought about it..i noticed someone sort of laughing to themselves, i really hope i wasn't the reason behind it..

i am such a NERD!..

To Tell the World is To Want To Believe

bismillah..

please dear God,

cure me off this "disability"..i hope to be more productive and reliable all year round..

i hope to have a more stable internal emotional temperament..

i hope to be more positive and stay positive thus experiencing less burn-outs..

i hope to achieve my life's goals and still observe those of my afterlife..

i hope to be a successful adult with good values, positive goals and a fantastic social life..

i love my family, my friends, and those few special people who blur the line between the two..

please also make all their dreams come true..

amin..

Kicking and Screaming!!

i feel like kicking and screaming right now.. ARGHHHH!!!!!

even my brother's poor laptop is suffering from my stress..it doesn't help that the keyboard is so stuck! i have to slam on the "C" key and "spacebar" everytime i need it! stupid streamyx rosak! i miss by mac! s*** !

it's not like it's been a bad day, but things just aren't really going according to plan today..

1. planned to reach work early - didn't happen (caused by over-sleeping + massive traffic jam)
2. work was a whole new level of dry..i kept on counting down the time..i don't know why..
3. half of my lunch time was spent on waiting for it to be cooked, ALONE..
4. was suppose to go on a solo gym mission today, both pump and combat - didn't happen (thanks to mum's workaholic boss, she didn't even have a proper lunch! how could you..)
5. i stumbled upon something pissy online, trying to suppress...
6. i want to blog also susah because internet my brother keeps on getting stuck!

COME ON!!!!! and i can't run around kicking and screaming..*sigh...

finally, CSI dah start..distract mode -ON-