Quick Fix

i haven't been actively blogging for a while now, i realize..lot's of things have happened..yes..but now i want to talk about other things..haha!

i broke my glasses last month, which can be said to be last year..hmm..luckily, i had foresight to make a pair of spare for cheap back home during summer..i wear them at night when i'm home usually as my day glasses are a bit heavy..but now that i have to wear these everyday i hate it :(

i have come to appreciate the magic of larger framed spectacles! simply, i can see more without squinting and they make my eyes look bigger as i am naturally "sepet". Kesian my spare glasses, i don't mean to hate..i think i'm giving it negative vibes which it does not deserve..

the other day i took off my specs to use the shower, then i forgot where i put them. It took me a good half hour to locate my glasses (yes, i am quite sadly optically disabled now) and i had to result to holding up my broken pair of glasses to find the good ones. FYI, i only occasionally wear contact lenses now as i'm kind of "allergic" to them due to other reasons that we don't have to talk about.

so why am i going on about this again? hmm...

i know..i guess because i'm tired, i'm almost bored of doing this thing called dissertation and i'm missing home all of a sudden..again. I want to spend time with my recently pregnant cousin, i want to annoy my brother, i want to see my Popo, i want to lo-sang; twice, one with my Ah Yie, Uncle, Popo and cousins and another with my Mak Ngah and Mak Teh..most of all, i want to watch tv in the hall with my parentsss! arghhh..

winter blues are so depressing..

ps : thanks SB for randomly holidaying in London..am really glad i got to come down and see you for a bit..absolute highlight of my January :)

iPad

E : Do you play "noodle-jump"?? (this is what i heard)

A : no, what's that?

E : it's when you tilt your iPhone or iPad to jump on to the levels..

A : ...i don't understand...

E : because the level is bouncy..

A : ...

E : can i show you??

A : ok...but what are "you"?..

E : "you" are...a thing

A : (hahahahaha!)

i now know it's a game app called Doodle Jump and "you" are a doodle that looks like a potato squid...

i want iPad..

Puchong?

i got lost on the road again today..like seriously lost, to the point i couldn't figure out my bearings and my instincts were zero..

i was doing well for the first 3/4 of the journey, remembering the directions from google maps..then what i imagined to be a regular T-junction turned out to be a raised fly-over on both sides with traffic lights in the middle..it made me panic and i over-shot and freaked out..

then after figuring out how to go about U-turn-ing, i forgot which side of the traffic light i came from and ended up going in circles..thank God for a BHP petrol station with a kind sales person inside, i eventually found my way..

i'm glad i gave myself an hour to get there..i anticipated getting lost, so i reached my destination on-time :) harharhar

then on the way home, something incredible happened..as i had confidently figured out my way back, they closed up the fly-over that would take me to the sunway toll..the one and only LDP fly-over (that i know of lah)..all the cars were directed down and i was like "ehh??"..and ended up going towards Balakong..i wanted to cry..

this is when i gave up with the road signs and called my dad..thank God thank God i had my phone with sufficient battery life..and i'm back home in one piece..

this is the story of my merry monday puchong adventure.

Anti Depressants on Cloud Nine

how can human feelings be so confusing, in such extremes, at the same time?..how can someone be ecstatic and depressed all at once?..how can i be dancing to pitbull and akon in the car and want to burst into tears while singing along?..

i'm kidding myself if i think i'm fine, because clearly i'm not.

upon reflection now, i'm sure i made the right decision..we are worlds a part, my life has no business in his and vice versa..i also don't think that i can forgive, nor forget, some of the things said when we fell through the cracks and especially the ones after it all ended..yes, i will say it in the open now, i think enough grace period has been spent..

i'm still sad, i'm still hurt, and i still haven't fully recovered..worst stilllll, i'm in denial..oh wait, now that i'm admitting it, i guess i'm not anymore?..ugh, whatever..

i received a message today..when i read it, it made me cry..then i realized who the message's from..then i just wanted to go home and bury myself in a pillow..i wish things were different..i wish we were different..but it wasn't and we aren't, and that's that.

i've gotten so used to not having to be alone that it proves to be quite difficult lately..my social awkwardness ratio and random fears have significantly increased..and the past 4 years of being engrossed in such specifics has rendered me a complete geek..i don't know if i'll ever be normal again..seriously..

ironically..i'm still sooooo excitably giddy over an awesom-azing-entertaining yesterday night..and within this hyper edged excitement is when i realize that i haven't fully let go yet..i still behave like i'm somebody's somebody..and that's a habit that'll take time to let go..

thank you so much for everything..but i'm so sorry..

i really want to let go....

i don't want to be mourning anymore

I Wanna Get Myself A Hookah

oh..malunya meng-emo seorang diri secara tiba-tiba semalam..(note : post deleted)..too embarrassed to keep it published..have lots of work, but too tired and takde mood to do..i want shisha..haha..will be staying up tonight..and i'm hungry..nak masak maggie....

-end-

mondays aren't so bad

today was great.

i woke up late..had lunch with the 2 awesome dudettes..looked through photos of the best 4 days i've had..drove to shah alam while singing at the top of my lungs..spent time with a friend i haven't seen for a while..had a catch-up session and reminisced about old times..came home and watched the 2nd half of The Other Boleyn Girl..then watched So You Think You Can Dance over dinner..i say, productive day! :)

tommorrow..reality's back in overdrive..work work work! can't wait for the weekend!..haha

gushy woshy crush crussshhhhh*~*~* ;p

Ace

(follow up to previous post)

tak jadi keluar pun hari ni..bodohnya..haha!..

anyways, dramatic end to onepiece574..my dream anime hubby..u are truly my favourite character of the lot..if u've read the title, yes, he really dies..i can't wait to see luffy kick akainu's lava ass..today has not been a very good day....

...RIP Portgas D Ace...