Munif was right : I Am the Super Nerd

today something happened..

i finished my assigned job early and didn't really have anymore "meet-the-deadline" rush-rush thing to do so i went back to updating the supplier library..i already finished keying in the roof inventory into the computer so i decided to do the doors next..

so i sorted out the different categories, types and all that and began reading the catalogues and jotting down the needed information to be uploaded into the computer lah..

long story short, i got to the "Automatic Doors" category..this was like 2 and a half hours into just reading and writing..there was a brand of doors imported from Japan called NABCO..as i was reading it, i found myself giggling like a little kid amazed at the different types of colour coated jelly beans on display..

(if you hate reading about ridiculous architecture-ish stuff that's elaborately boring, please skip/fast forward through this paragraph)

there were like almost 10 different types of different automatic doors! each of the 10 having its own break down of 2-3 different variations! i was like so totally amazed!! the coolest were their collection of automatic revolving doors with the "circle star X" as the prized jewel! wow, i have never seen this door in my life and it's so COOL!! it's like a combination between a revolving door and sliding doors, like what the hell right?! i can't even imagine how it would work if i were walking through it..awesomeness....!!!

so yeah, as all this excitement raced through my head i didn't notice the ridiculous face i was making while giggling into a freakin door catalogue like it was a picture book..i had my mp3 on so i was kind of in my own little world until i thought i saw something moving from the corner of my eye..like that, an imaginary hand smacked my sub-concious telling me to snap out of it..as i was coming back to reality, i think i somewhat remember making weird grunting noises in between giggling earlier..oh my God..

seriously, a big oh my God..i'm in my office kot sitting at the meeting table..now, only God knows what my office mates might have saw and what they thought about it..i noticed someone sort of laughing to themselves, i really hope i wasn't the reason behind it..

i am such a NERD!..

To Tell the World is To Want To Believe

bismillah..

please dear God,

cure me off this "disability"..i hope to be more productive and reliable all year round..

i hope to have a more stable internal emotional temperament..

i hope to be more positive and stay positive thus experiencing less burn-outs..

i hope to achieve my life's goals and still observe those of my afterlife..

i hope to be a successful adult with good values, positive goals and a fantastic social life..

i love my family, my friends, and those few special people who blur the line between the two..

please also make all their dreams come true..

amin..

Kicking and Screaming!!

i feel like kicking and screaming right now.. ARGHHHH!!!!!

even my brother's poor laptop is suffering from my stress..it doesn't help that the keyboard is so stuck! i have to slam on the "C" key and "spacebar" everytime i need it! stupid streamyx rosak! i miss by mac! s*** !

it's not like it's been a bad day, but things just aren't really going according to plan today..

1. planned to reach work early - didn't happen (caused by over-sleeping + massive traffic jam)
2. work was a whole new level of dry..i kept on counting down the time..i don't know why..
3. half of my lunch time was spent on waiting for it to be cooked, ALONE..
4. was suppose to go on a solo gym mission today, both pump and combat - didn't happen (thanks to mum's workaholic boss, she didn't even have a proper lunch! how could you..)
5. i stumbled upon something pissy online, trying to suppress...
6. i want to blog also susah because internet my brother keeps on getting stuck!

COME ON!!!!! and i can't run around kicking and screaming..*sigh...

finally, CSI dah start..distract mode -ON-

Sailing on a Flimsy Reality

it's been ages since i posted something...

reason no.1 - life just took a new turn into "work-hood"
reason no.2 - internet at home is down and will be down for a while until i get it fixed, which would probably take ages

i'm so so tired of stressing out..why am i so fickle and gutless when it comes to making decisions?
i over think everything in life and in turn hurt myself and others along the way by procrastinating important decisions!
i'm just sooo tired and unwilling to deal with consequences....

work has been rudely tiring but surprisingly fulfilling..
gym nights have been helping me ease my sorrowful working existence by giving me reason to look forward to something other then staring into a computer screen..
they always say that when you do something you like, work doesn't feel like work anymore..
i beg to differ..work will always be work, because of the repetitious un-breaking cycle it revolves around..
no matter how much fun work is, repetitious cycles are boring, draining, and life-suckingly zombie like..
i can't wait to get back to studying..hahahaha! i am never satisfied in what ever situation i'm in..

i decided to go for a theater production audition the other day..it was one of those "on-a-whim" decisions i made..
i had to prepare 2 monologues and a song..the auditions didn't go as well as i hoped it would have though..haha! nervous!!
but i'm really glad i did it..i don't know if i'll get called back, but either way, i'd definitely go and audition some more..
at least now i know roughly what to expect..and if i do eventually end up getting into a show, then it would be an exciting addition to my daily routine..

i might just get my hair coloured this weekend..depending on how much it's gonna cost me and how long it's gonna take..
and i wanna get coloured contact lenses too..i think i'm going through one of those "spice-up-your-life" phases right now..
i also realized that i get envious, "terasa" and emo-motion way too easily sometimes..even when it's got nothing to do with me..i'm quite the nut-case..

well, this is my update to last me the next week or so i guess..internet, oh internet..please fix yourself if you don't mind?please please please.................

Of Kerja & Raya

my first week of work has been interesting and quite the cycle i have to learn to get use to..i can never seem to wake up on time, NEVER..not even on my first day..so today, on friday, 18th of september, i decided that i should not sleep after sahur..i'm just too used to waking up at 1.00++pm everyday for the past month or so that waking up at 6.30am is just highly HIGHLY challenging..

office is fun i guess..haha! damn cacat statement..it's very different from my internship place and the standard UiTM atmosphere, but i like it..no one really talks to anyone except if it's about work so the working environment is rather quiet..i actually really like this since i always zone out when i'm doing stuff so at least i don't come off too awkward..i'm the only Muslim girl which is rather difficult actually, sembahyang and all, but i'm getting along lah..i'm sitting at a diagonal position behind my direct supervisor which is stressful sometimes since he'll observe me doing work just to see if i'm competent enough..the a/c in the office is always so damn cold so i'm always thirsty and my skin is peeling..but better freezing cold than smelting hot right? with the smell of sweat and everything..i'm contented..

oh, oh! and i have to help pick up the phone too sometimes if the secretary and subha, my table neighbour, is busy..i love answering the phone!.."hello/good morning, *** architect.."..hahahahaha..so fun!..i feel all grown-up-working-person already :D

so today i have to be at the office at 8.00am at least, since my supervisor wants me to submit stuff at 10.00am..there's not much left to do, but just in case something stupid happens it's better if i get there earlier..i'm quite scared actually..well, also today every other Malay person in the office is on leave already, so it's gonna be an extra quiet day today..*mental note: must bring ipod*..

haih..ultimately, i cannot wait for raya!!! thank God i slithered my way from giving duit raya this year..hahaha..yalah, baru work 1 week..i have no money to upfront first..sorry ah muh cousins, tahun depan extra sikit lah..make up for this year..HAPPY HARI RAYA EVERYBODY!! may this year be extra special and extra BEST for everyone!! ameen..Maaf Zahir & Batin..

next week..

the guy from the architecture firm called, so i'm gonna be reporting in for duty on monday at freakin 8.30am..oh my..awalnya office hours..

am i excited? hmm..50-50 i guess..i'm not done holiday-ing yet actually..harharhar!

most of my uni friends are already doing something important with their lives and my brain has officially went back to zero so it's probably the right time to kick start my "new era" in life..

so starting next week my everyday life cycle, sleep cycle, social activities and gym time table will officially re-schedule itself..not forgetting that i haven't done sh** for my part 2 applications..hehe..oh, and i'm still owing a few people their books!..oh my oh my..i'm such an idiot sometimes..

well, i have the weekend to do something about it..so yeah, i really should do something about all this..*psych myself*

plus, i should also be revising some basic construction knowledge and such so that i wont come off as an idiot on my first day..so...where did i put my books again?..hmm......*search search*

oh well, here goes the beginning of the end of my "careless-anak-bongsu" phase of life..may what comes next be exciting, fulfilling and attitude changing for the better..insyaAllah....

you spin my head right round, right round, like a record baby right round, round, round

Laparnya...

it is 1.40am and i am so SO HUNGRY...

there's nothing to eat at home, how am i to survive...

when i finally found cheezels stashed away at the back of the cupboard, i now know why it was there.....

BBQ Cheese Flavour!!?? who the heck came up with that!?? tak sedap!!!! :(

*laparnya~* sob sob sob....