Quick Fix

i haven't been actively blogging for a while now, i realize..lot's of things have happened..yes..but now i want to talk about other things..haha!

i broke my glasses last month, which can be said to be last year..hmm..luckily, i had foresight to make a pair of spare for cheap back home during summer..i wear them at night when i'm home usually as my day glasses are a bit heavy..but now that i have to wear these everyday i hate it :(

i have come to appreciate the magic of larger framed spectacles! simply, i can see more without squinting and they make my eyes look bigger as i am naturally "sepet". Kesian my spare glasses, i don't mean to hate..i think i'm giving it negative vibes which it does not deserve..

the other day i took off my specs to use the shower, then i forgot where i put them. It took me a good half hour to locate my glasses (yes, i am quite sadly optically disabled now) and i had to result to holding up my broken pair of glasses to find the good ones. FYI, i only occasionally wear contact lenses now as i'm kind of "allergic" to them due to other reasons that we don't have to talk about.

so why am i going on about this again? hmm...

i know..i guess because i'm tired, i'm almost bored of doing this thing called dissertation and i'm missing home all of a sudden..again. I want to spend time with my recently pregnant cousin, i want to annoy my brother, i want to see my Popo, i want to lo-sang; twice, one with my Ah Yie, Uncle, Popo and cousins and another with my Mak Ngah and Mak Teh..most of all, i want to watch tv in the hall with my parentsss! arghhh..

winter blues are so depressing..

ps : thanks SB for randomly holidaying in London..am really glad i got to come down and see you for a bit..absolute highlight of my January :)

iPad

E : Do you play "noodle-jump"?? (this is what i heard)

A : no, what's that?

E : it's when you tilt your iPhone or iPad to jump on to the levels..

A : ...i don't understand...

E : because the level is bouncy..

A : ...

E : can i show you??

A : ok...but what are "you"?..

E : "you" are...a thing

A : (hahahahaha!)

i now know it's a game app called Doodle Jump and "you" are a doodle that looks like a potato squid...

i want iPad..

Wishlist

i wish i could read minds..to a certain extent..like i can switch it on and off, when i really need some peace of mind..i wish i could let other people read my mind too..when i don't know how to relay something in words..or especially when there's no way something can be described in words..

i wish i could sing to some people..when i want to sing to these people..without feeling nauseously nervous and without over-thinking the "why-s"..

i wish i could get over myself..and get out of my head..and just have more "balls" to do something about stuff..stuff that mean a lot to me..stuff that i'm clearly finding hard to leave be..

i wish i could repeat that window of time..to appreciate it even more..to probably replay it over, and over, and over again..because it made me sincerely happy, whole, giddy and fulfilled..

safe..strong..able...

i wish......a million wishes right now.........

i saw something in the stars that night..strong enough to make me cry..i felt something that gave me light..something i'm sure changed me..something worth fighting for..

so why am i not fighting?..what's wrong with me....

Escapes from Some Kinda Crazy

1. Zee + Tea + Locanda Locatelli :)

the absolute bomb..zee's visit was timely and Locatelli was an EXPERIENCE..haha!

2. London, Meet & Greet at Bayswater

made some new friends there..was an interesting outing..will definitely appreciate a "re-group" of some sort..t'was fun :)

3. School's Easter Ball

it is incredibly fun to get together every now and then with everyone dressed up, pretty, and just excitably dance-y..i just love 'em..the music and the place that night was pretty good too..

March has been very kind to me :)

~ Now, off to work you! ~

Done (Temporarily)

4 day breaks are the effing bomb..

I'm gonna mmmmaximizzzzzzeeeee

- i need a doctor, doctor..to be bring me back to life~*

I'm Working Hard, Seriously! :(

freaking out..

all is good but..matilahhhhh..

it's so susah as it is..just to survive..minimum upper second class?..60% for all modulesss???

piglettssssssss..die die dieeeeee..luckily contract only begins now..but still, i'll probably get an effing warning letter already..dieeeeeeeeeee..

shit..

but i should be going for high grades..if i plan to ever get to do a specific masters or phd..

i'm an idiot!

argghhhhhh..cry.........

The Final Lap

7 days..

to solitary confinement again..

i'm not so sure that's a good thing anymore..

it gets lonely doesn't it?..

i should be more worried about now..

the next 7 days are crucial!

- success will only come to those who strive for it -