Quick Week Update

this is post no.101..i don't feel as if i've published 100 posts, but what the heck..

this past week has been ridiculous..so much has happened and the net was down for a while so now there's a pile up of info flooding my mind that i need to just lash out..

1. Saturday : Bold Street Festival was spent with awesome Chloe n funny Fahmi..most interesting was the stuff we found by the street on sale n in quaint stores..there was a few different food tasting stalls, a stage for homegrown bands, street artists (literally), public participation salsa dancing, drum banging with football tricks guy anddddd i got good quality 2nd hand Dorothy Perkins boots for £3..supreme fun..

2. Monday : Introduction class to Practice Management & Law..i liked how it was presented n am looking forward to the subject..some quotable quotes; "do not use lift in case of fire" - argumentatively speaking, it should be "do not use lift in the event of fire"..how words and its structure can mean different things when not 'written' properly..so much fun..haha..the lecturer asked "who enjoys the writing of contract terms (or something) in architecture?" and there was dead silence..i really wanted to raise my hand, that'll just make me the weirdo, so i had to refrain from getting too excited :p

3. Monday night : Lacuna Coil, live at O2 Academy..i was freakin delirious..enough said.

4. Tuesday : Precedent Study visit, Derwen College @ Shropshire..enlightening stuff..i hope to fuel such an initiative back home someday..it was thought provoking and inspiring for me..and the food they served were prepared by their kitchen with the student themselves involved in production..it was the best berry muffin, cheese sandwich n palak paneer rolls i've ever tasted in my entire life..i would pay a lot for such care n love in the quality :)

5. Wednesday : Site Visits in the morning..it was raining on and off..myself n the camera got all soggy-foggy on the surface..it was cold although i came prepared with a hoodie pull-over..caught-up with Sara at the city centre at around noon..chilled n did some registration stuff till late in the evening..had dinner together with Elia n slept over in their hotel room..

6. Thursday : spent the whole day with Sara, Elia, Auntie n Salam..more registration and settling in stuff got done..met Ken the banker n loved his attitude..was sold at the end of our conversation..settled uni things at the foundation building..went back home in the evening n fried myself rice which turned out quite alright..

7. Friday : with still nothing done for studio, finally opened an account in the morning..got some sort of a start in the noon and attended another induction at 2pm..had lunch after, then continued to complete more tasks in the evening..attended a M'sian icebreakers night for dinner n games, then went walking around unexplored parts of Liverpool with a part-time tour guide n newly made friend Syafiq and the gang (Sara, Salam, Chloe n Fahmi)..

it was a fantastic week..i am now dead tired n hopes to stop slacking off n having too much fun..it's just so difficult to be fully focused in this fabulous city..

am in love with Liverpool :^* :^)

45 is the new 100%

i'm not sure how it happened exactly, but i completely missed Wednesday last week..like i was so sure it's Friday today, n although everyone was referring to it as Saturday, i was completely unfazed..until about 2.am this morning..shit, i completely missed Wednesday..that's why i thought it was Friday..sigh..

and this matters because i thought i'd still have today to open my bank account and get a mobile plan and pass my passport to the school for verification and meet a NHS consultation slot and lots more! ugh..i feel so stupid......

now all i can do is go to the city centre n get my shoes changed n buy some groceries..wtf man..

a wasted end to the week..

so yesterday was the "pre-introduction"(?) to the MArch course..i freaked out upon arrival..seriously..i was the only freakin asian in the room when i walked in..it's soo freakin racist of me, but it just really scared the crap out of me..but eventually i think it's a good thing though..i forced my way into studying in the UK because i wanted this out-of-the-norm experience..so this is it, n it's a good thing..(n when i say "forced" i really mean it, like i maneuvered everything possible around me to get to this point)..so i guess "be careful what u wish for" really applies..

like, i've always known that i have inferiority issues..so honestly i was disappointed that i didn't make it into Bath or Sheffield for their MArch (they're my top choices), n almost everyone i know who applied for Liverpool got it, so i didn't think much of it..but after yesterday i was like "ok...."..because the way they do it here is that the head of programme chooses his students personally, like he actually vets through all the applications himself, n he's someone who remembers specific parts of peoples portfolios but maybe not their names..

he actually said this to everyone, "i want you all to know that out of 250 applicants only 45 of you made the cut, and you should know that you're here because we think that you're really good and that you would be able to do this course very well"..and that just honestly made me feel like a million bucks..it just made my day..my freakin week even..i don't care if anyone else agrees, but if someone, a practicing professional architect who validates architectural courses internationally to be exact, thinks that i am worth his attention in this unforgiving architectural universe of scrutiny, i am happy..honestly..dramatic..hahahahaha! :p

it also freaked me out how you could cut the competitive tension in the air with a freakin plastic spoon!..like everyone's here to kill it i felt..it was really intimidating..everyone ranged from about 22-25 years of age, so it's a fairly young class..n everyone is at least a head taller than me, even my new found Malaysian friend/studiomate Chloe..sighhhhhhh..freakin short stuff..my elstonian flatmates were joking about how small i was that they're just so afraid when they hug me or accidentally bump me i'll break..geez..i'm so freakin asian ok..damn..hahahaha

on a lighter note, i don't think i'll be hooking up with any of my coursemates..hahahahahahahaha..not that there aren't any good loking ones, like there's freakin loads, apa jenis u nak? cute blonde, edgy dark eyed brunette, jocky looking, chillax long haired grunge, the general handsome ones, yang pendek macam asian pun ada, seriously like anything..it's ridiculous..but like it's soooo tensed, like i can feel it already, the sizing up, the discriminating stares..like hey, i'm doing it too man..it's normal..i think that everyone would just end up hating/respecting each other too much..there's a very fine line between, yeah?..haha..i don't know..but this is a good kind of tension though, i feel that there's a colourful aura to it, not like the usual creepy "i'll stab ur back n with hold information ones" that's familiar..so it's all good so far :)

ok, so this is getting a bit too long..n i still have no photos to break the post into enjoyable portions..so until the next time i feel like writing again :) hopefully by then got photos already..

be happy, don't worry..watagatapittusberry!

- Pittbull & more

Take me Over, Make me Strong

to rationalize is to be weak, is it..but ultimately it's between urself n God right..justification is irrelevant especially if the law has been spelled out..but realizing or accepting/acknowledging the fact that what u're doing is wrong and wanting to be better when possible is better than not doing anything at all..but it's still not right right, right..sigh..life is hard isn't it..

so easy how we come undone..

Dishwalla - Candleburn..

A New Beginning

it's my second day in Liverpool and after almost 2 months of silence i'm ready to blog again :)

so i was the butt of a bit of drama when i arrived in Manchester..being the occasionally half deaf person i am, i misheard this senior airport officer who was segregating people arriving into lines..he was saying "non-students" but ofcourse i heard "students"..how dumb right..then i kena marah by him really loudly when i reached the counter..i was so embarrassed, it took me a good half hour to get over it..sigh..but it's alright, i think my face went charcoal black after and the officer that dealt with me i think felt really sorry n was being really nice about it..

i fell asleep on the bus to Liverpool..so i was out cold for like 3/4 of the journey..haha..but as soon as i woke up..the view was just amazing..i really felt like i'm on campus ground u know..with halls, n fields, n departments, n a real-life gothic cathedral..i'm like "oh yeah, this is for real!"..haha!

i'm happy with my room..its size is just right and with the addition of my computer, a small floor mat, toiletries rack n blue tacked photos, soon it's gonna be awesome..

so i'm taking note of how many friends i've made right..haha..i'm just lame like that..whether or not they consider me a friend as well is a separate matter :p n officially it's 10 and counting..yeaahhhhhh!! hahaha

1. Wendy from China
2. Michelle from Taiwan
3. Alex from Romania
4. Arsene from France
5. Dikla from Israel
6. Fahmi from Indonesia
7. Samad from Spain
8. Hennah from China
9. Zheng from China
10. Irina from Elstonia

cool right! :D..i'm hella proud of myself man..ngehehehe..i'm such a geeeeekkkkkk..sigh..i still find making friends sooo difficult..it's ok, crash course time!

and i'm suffering from some shit ass jet lag at the mo..it's in that stage where it's half cured so i still zombie-size at around 5.30pm but instead of sleeping in up till 4am i'm awake at 9pm, headaches n all..dangit..so Arsene had asked if i wanted to chill n i said i'd really love to after i take a nap n now it's freakin 10pm so he's probably out having fun already..bummerrrrr :(

oh oh, n i passed the School of Architecture building today n i feel it man..like seriously, i FEEL IT!..inspired n all!!..rrroooaaaaaarrrrrr!! hahaha!!!..hope i'll be able to cope..the coolness of everything is kinda intimidating n freakin me out :p haven't met any studio mates yet though..would be really interesting..hmm hmm hmmmmmm

so yeah..everything's going alright as of now..i was feeling a bit emo-ed out this evening..i think homesickness is kicking in :( n everytime i pay for something my brain automatically multiplies by 5 which makes me feel like i don't want to eat anything..hahaha..but if it's considered pound for pound, i think the living cost here is not bad at all..

i also think that some locals tend to be quite racist unintentionally..but who could blame them, it seems like half their country is covered in foreigners..things can get quite lonely n boring if takde kawan, so i think berkawan-kawan is seriously important man..

so i'm experiencing problems uploading anymore photos..dunno why..will put up some stuff in my next post then :) all in all, i'm having a great time..thank God..hopefully it'll carry on this way till whenever..i'm gonna make myself dinner now, goodnight~*

Nightmare at 2.30am

Ok, I'm agitated and I can't sleep..so I've decided to write this post..

My gut has been quite accurate so far, if I really listened..I felt strongly on the win against Argentina, it was worrying but the winning feeling was there..I was however in denial with Spain and underestimated their slightly inconsistent form..clearly I was wrong and they played really well..

Confession : the day before the world cup began my mom had asked me who I thought would be champions this time around, and my answer was Spain..I didn't share this with anyone else..

I know, I'm such a traitor..

I've been a German fan since we (my wc girlfriends for life!!) started to watch this crazy time stopping worldwide event..it is officially our 3rd wc together n as German fans through n through..I don't even remember how we got about to being German fans but I think it had something to do with Michael Ballack, n the superb skills of Kahn, Lehman, Klose, Lahm, Mertesacker and the rest of the superstar senior team, just to name some favourites..

4 years ago, we being excitable young teens, stitched our own German gear, painted our nails black, red n yellow, even bought matching shoe laces to show our support..unfortunately, in the semis, Germany lost to Italy on penalties..we watched that game on foot for the full duration of 120minutes + + as we couldn't get a table..it was heartbreaking..

Today, history has repeated itself..only involving Spain this time, without penalties or even extra time..and all 3 of us girls were watching in separate venues..without too much German "merchandise" :p (there's a word for it, but I can't seem to dig it out of my brain)

Heartbreaking, again..

I will however admit that Spain was the better team today, with little drama involved in play for both sides..it was the worste Germany has performed in this wc, which did not suck considering they've been tremendous through out, and the best game from Spain so far..their passing was impeccable, aggressive atacking, crazy close-control and great team work..n most importantly, they delivered when it mattered the most..

I had said that if Germany was able to block-out Villa from scoring and prevent an early Spain goal then they would win..I was wrong..they did both n they still lost..

It was a good German team this year..mad young skills..just unfortunately not good enough..n I think Muller being out of the game had caused a big hole in their attacking formation..Klose, Muller, Ozil n Podolski have been playing really well together..I'm in love with Mesut Ozil btw..but am a little disappointed in his last 2 games though..I'm sure he can do better..*sigh..

All in all, my gut is sticking with Spain for champions..let's see if my gut is as accurate as Paul the octopus :p I'm so angry at this animal right now, although I know it's not its fault..sorry Paul, you're my punching bag for the rest of the world cup.

For what it's worth, Los Deutchsland!! Ich denke un dich.

Just Another Day In "Paradise"

Kena marah today by my brother for coming home late 2 days in a row because of work..sh** man..this sucks..

I can't just leave when I know things are not done..I just can't..nanti cannot sleep thinking about it anyway..same difference..

But I know he's right though, I'm not handling my hand over very well..I need to be more aggressive..I need to completely let go and let them feel the load..then maybe they'll buck up and step up..

I should start thinking about myself and my personal priorities already..

I'm scared man..I feel like I have zero knowledge in my head for September..I'm not ready if I stay like this..I NEED to set my stuff straight man..

Haish..wish me luck :p

July is suppose to be fun dammit!

Today was an odd day..

It was freezing although the sun was up strikingly bright..

I had enough sleep but felt like I stayed up for 2.30 football that morning..

Ppl just decided to go on emergency leave and left me to die alone..

My boss seemed to have had forgotten some things that started to confuse me n gave me a headache..

I wanted to listen to mellow music again..

Something exploded, literally, as I was crossing towards that direction..luckily I didn't cross the street yet..

Pappa rich was jam packed at 10pm on a Monday night..

I didn't finish work..obviously..I was disappointingly unable to juggle the work load of 3..

I drove back half asleep at 12.30am..

But now I can't sleep.......

Seriously........

:(